Sunday, November 9, 2008

I Just Can't Seem to Catch My Breath ...

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           a WARNING ... a little rant and whine ahead.  If you are looking for my usual cheerful entries, check back in a day or two.                                                       
Do you ever feel like you just don't have any time between events?  Even though many of the events have been fun in the last few weeks, I am just ready for a break.  However, this does not seem likely.  In the last month, we went to Nashville for a week, returned to visiting Dad and Step-mother for a week, one week to sorta catch up/recover, and then off to Duke Medical Center to discover even more things wrong with my big teen's heart.  Last night we returned from Duke and Ronald McDonald House.  We have the next two weeks of our normal schedule, which is busy enough, and then Thanksgiving.  Then it is the month of December with a 10 day loop of Tomatis, my FASD dd's birthday (which is always traumatic for her), and Christmas.  Did I mention a 10 day loop of Tomatis?    Ugh!!  I am keeping up well with the big teen's schooling, but the little one's schooling is basically down to reading and math daily and SOTW, tea time chapter book reading, and FIAR when I can squeeze it in.  As for the other subjects, like Spanish and science ... PLEASE.  I don't mind homeschooling being a little crazy now and again, but a month of craziness is just getting to be too much ... and let's not even talk about the house.  It seems to be under control about one day a week ~ the day we are not home in it.  Just from where I'm sitting, I can see 20 Legos, several hair bows, a Barbie, a still packed suitcase, two overflowing laundry baskets waiting for folding and numerous papers everywhere.  Additionally, there are just worries ... a mounting To Do List, the big teen facing the loss of health insurance in a few months because of pre-existing conditions, and threat of services being cut for my FASD/RAD dd's one-on-one respite care provider.  The mental health programs in this state right now stink ... OK!  So I need to focus and list off a few things that I am thankful for ...
  1. We are home safe from Duke.
  2. Our big teen had a pretty good check up for his heart and pacemaker, although they found a new heart defect.  I do not know yet what this means for him, but pooling blood does not sound good.
  3. I have faith that his doctors have his best interest at heart.  No pun intended.
  4. My mother was healthy enough to be able to go along and help out, when at times she has not been up to it.  She was able to stay with my younger son at Ronald McDonald House while we were at the hospital all day.  He would have had a real hard time with all of the required transitions from room to room while getting various tests in the hospital.
  5. My two girls breezed through the 7 hours in hospital waiting rooms and doctors' offices.
  6. My big teen completed his out-of-the-home world history class and world religion classes.  He is not so happy about this, because he loved taking them, but I am happy to have one less place I have to get him to every week.
  7. While we were at Duke, we were able to go to the NC Museum of Art and had a lovely time.  I loved it when my 6 year old son recognized a Monet from across the room.
  8. I have the next two weeks mostly at home to hopefully catch my breath and refresh my school plans for the next two months.
  9. I really do love the holidays and look forward to our old traditions and starting a few new ones.
  10. My refrigerator is well stocked for the next few weeks.
  11. Homeschooling is flexible and rolls with the bumps of life.
  12. We have a family filled with love and faith.
Blessings, Dawn

14 comments:

  1. I like #8 the best. I do hope you get to stay at home a lot. You have had soooo much on your plate. No wonder your feeling stressed. Take it easy - as much as you can. Do the things that up lift you. Don't worry about school so much. Enjoy the kids. This is a tough season that you are going through - you need your own tank refilled.

    Antoinette

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  2. Wow, Dawn. You've got a lot on your plate. You are wise to recount your blessings. That's always helpful when we feel overwhelmed. He is in control. Hold tight to that.

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  3. I've been praying for you, Dawn. I know that you have a lot on your plate. I loved your Gratitude List!


    I'm glad you stopped by! I've missed being in touch with you. Yes, I'm still homeschooling JJ. I've been attempting to do preschool with GracieGirl, too, and I'm seeing some little red flags, so I'm setting up some appointments for her. I'm about the same. I stopped PT, mostly because of finances, and am looking into other treatments/surgeries.


    At this particular moment, we're all healthy and happy, and I'm grateful for that! :)


    Denise

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  4. I'm sorry to hear of your struggles. I pray for God's peace to reign in your life.


    How often do you have to go to Duke? We are less than 45 minutes away.

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  5. Oh my. You do have a lot going on. Homeschooling is certainly a blessing in difficult times!

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  6. You have indeed had a hectic month. I can relate. We have had one ourselves~lots of going back and forth to visit or pick up our daughter, camping, fall festivals, sickness...most of it fun, but just too much in a short amount of time. You have the added stress of serious physical conditions. Your schooling with the little ones sounds like it is just fine~much more than many us would be doing. They learn things while they are with you in all of these places, and they learn as they play.

    I pray you have some quiet days mingled in with the hectic things.

    Letitia

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  7. It's a season... some last longer than others lol. Am praying for your son.

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  8. I can totally relate to your exhaustion and I only have one mildly to moderately special needs child right now!


    It is snowing again right now. It seems so Narnia-ish! Big lovely flakes in a spruce forest!


    Off to supper. The birthday boy just woke from his nap.


    Carol

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  9. I know your faith will see you through this time. I think we all go through days, weeks and even months of unending activity. Stay strong girl. The house can wait, school is everyday living and they are learning other important skills (patience, flexibility, etc.), and this too shall pass. Take a minute and hug the kids. It's all worth it!

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  10. ((((HUGS)))) Dawn!


    You don't have to always be cheerful on your blog.

    It keeps it real when you share your bumps in the road. Besides sharing helps to divide our sorrows and multiply our joys.


    I totally relate to the being gone all the time. October was like that for us. We are finally just getting to a normal routine and then we go and get a crummy cold and like you said the holidays are about here.


    I'm sorry to hear about Big Teen's new heart condition.


    It is good that you found so much for which to be thankful in the midst of the flurry; truly following the command to give thanks in everything.


    Hang in there!

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  11. I love the positive attitude you have in the midst of the chaos. I can totally relate. Our lives are just crazy right now, and school in particular is getting pushed to the backburner. I will be praying for you, your family and especially your son's health! =)

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  12. At least you had your head in the right place--you focused on the Lord and His many blessings in spite of...I'm just beginning to understand that no trial or temptation befalls us that Jesus wasn't tempted with Himself. He got frustrated, He got weary, He just wanted a break as a flesh-and-blood man (oh, Lord, please take this cup from me--remember that one?) You did what He did: after acknowledging your frustrations, you turned your head to Him and and declared that not your will, but His be done, and His plans are always so much better than ours, right? God bless you and give you strength, Dawn.

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  13. Dawn,

    Even when you rant and whine I'm encouraged!! :-) Life is full of ups and downs and it is certainly a good idea to count our blessings in the midst of the "downs". Please don't feel that you must always be cheerful--it comforts us in our own frustrations to know that those we admire so much have their days (or weeks... or months) too. Silly, I know!! :-) Praying for your family's health challenges!! Blessings!! Kris

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  14. Just wanted to let you know I have a friendship award for you on my blog. : )

    Thanks for being a great bloggy friend.

    Blessings,

    Pam

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